Without thinking too much about it, today I picked up my phone and hit record. Well, actually I’ve been thinking about it for some time now. I love getting to peak inside people’s lives on youtube (OK, that sounded creepy). I follow some youtubers with content which I relate to or that make my day better by making me lol. (Can “young adults” still say/write lol?). So, yeah, today I stop hypothesizing about whether people would judge me (which they will, everyone does), and just went for it. I’m still debating if I will actually share it/start a youtube channel. I probably will. Or maybe I’ll chicken out. I don’t know. If I do post it, there goes my anonymity. Not that I’m too fond of it, it just made things easier. I’m a shy person, ok? I can be social and fun too. But I’m shy at first, and if you do get to watch this video, you’ll see how nervous I was/am.
So why do I want to be a youtuber?
I want to share my trips, exchange ideas about them, share a little bit about my life and what it is to live abroad and study in another “abroad”. I want to meet other people who struggle with what I struggle (e.g. am I going to finish this PhD eventually?/am I ever going to be able to live in my country again and have a job that I like?).
I mainly follow English speaking youtubers, so I thought it would make sense to speak English in my videos. It reaches more people that way. (Maybe in the future, I can make videos in Portuguese? Not Spanish though, my Spanish sounds awful. You don’t want to hear that. Spanish should sound porn-ish.)
Why film with a phone?
It was just easier to press play and record when I was feeling brave (fresh out of bed, and looking good!). Also, I wanted it to be raw and not-so edited. Not only because I lack video editing skills (!), but mainly because I want to be real from the very start. I like genuine youtubers (and people in general duh), so I aspire to be one of those. No bullshit. Maybe in the future (again, if there is one), I can switch to my boyfriend’s camera? Stay tuned, I’ll try to do my best.
Do you have more questions? Just write me.